Mirror Mysteries

Listening to: Lamb Of God  “Descending”  Mood: “organizing”

I refuse to cry, becuase I did way to much growing up - I believe I am the the only person that can give me the best compliments to my self-esteem. I love harsh or extreme metal, to hear someone else scream, growl, or anything in my ear and it calms me becuase I’ve never been able to fully scream. My honesty is as hard as steel, becuase I know what lies do - I wont allow me to be fully emotional - becuase I dont like to loose control of my self. Sometimes it may seem like I become distant, becuase I have to believe I can fully advocate for myself without any sort of help. I am very hard on my self, becuase I was raised to believe that I constantly needed help. I compinsate for my sadness with being optimistic - I become very stand-offish very quick when I think for a second I will be degraded - I live for people becuase I know what it is like to be fully alone. I wont insult anyone who doesn’t deserve it. I believe in karma becuase the diagnosis of Mosaic Down Syndrome is scientifically viewed as a disease. I believe in abilities, becuase I constantly heard what disabilities are.  I love my future now becuase I hated my past so much growing up.

I love and adore the mother of my son, becuase I refuse to be the guy that makes excuses and goes from woman to woman.  I also wont give-up on shana harris, becuase I believe know one should give up on who you love. I love my sons’ brother becuase I believe in equallity within family, I have pride in the future becuase I dwelled to much on my past. I comunicate with people, becuase I know the feeling of being lonley around people. I’m very good at writing out my emotions becuase I can’t fully organise them in person, and I find myself not to be a full exception to anything becuase I am only human. And I humilate myself, becuase I have an ego problem. I love attention becuase I didn’t what kind of attention I needed growing up. I am not a freak, I am beautiful! and I know it. And I joined the IMDSA, and have a family of my own becuase I know it’s not all about me.  AND Only I can give anyone power over me. I have to share and write this out, becuase I have to get over myself an be more happy! I would rather say these things, than to have someone say it.