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Oct 27 2009

“Re-affirming the Source”.

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Living With Mosaic Downs Syndrome [ M.D.S. ] & reflecting on pride.

Listening to: Lamb Of God  “Descending”  Mood: “organizing”

I refuse to cry, becuase I did way to much growing up - I believe I am the the only person that can give me the best compliments to my self-esteem. I love harsh or extreme metal, to hear someone else scream, growl, or anything in my ear and it calms me becuase I’ve never been able to fully scream. My honesty is as hard as steel, becuase I know what lies do - I wont allow me to be fully emotional - becuase I dont like to loose control of my self. Sometimes it may seem like I become distant, becuase I have to believe I can fully advocate for myself without any sort of help. I am very hard on my self, becuase I was raised to believe that I constantly needed help. I compinsate for my sadness with being optimistic - I become very stand-offish very quick when I think for a second I will be degraded - I live for people becuase I know what it is like to be fully alone. I wont insult anyone who doesn’t deserve it. I believe in karma becuase the diagnosis of Mosaic Down Syndrome is scientifically viewed as a disease. I believe in abilities, becuase I constantly heard what disabilities are.  I love my future now becuase I hated my past so much growing up.

I love and adore the mother of my son, becuase I refuse to be the guy that makes excuses and goes from woman to woman.  I also wont give-up on shana harris, becuase I believe know one should give up on who you love. I love my sons’ brother becuase I believe in equallity within family, I have pride in the future becuase I dwelled to much on my past. I comunicate with people, becuase I know the feeling of being lonley around people. I’m very good at writing out my emotions becuase I can’t fully organise them in person, and I find myself not to be a full exception to anything becuase I am only human. And I humilate myself, becuase I have an ego problem. I love attention becuase I didn’t what kind of attention I needed growing up. I am not a freak, I am beautiful! and I know it. And I joined the IMDSA, and have a family of my own becuase I know it’s not all about me.  AND Only I can give anyone power over me. I have to share and write this out, becuase I have to get over myself an be more happy! I would rather say these things, than to have someone say it.  

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Oct 21 2009

“work on today, so that tomarrow can better”

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Living With Mosaic Downs Syndrome [ M.D.S. ] & simply updating.

Listening to: Within Tempation w/ Chris Jones “Utopia”  Mood: “Clear”

It’s been more than a month since I’ve blogged last. I had to seriously work on things, and the [my] family in that time. I needed to get I guess a simple update up.  I’m not sure when I’m going to have a full update. As of right now, I’m more than extremely happy with my progress and where I’m going with things. Very calm, very clear, and a direct road to great future prospects for me and my family and over coming the ecomony a bit.

And must say  from last this time last year, till now “work on today, so that tomarrow can better” state-of-mind has served me very well. This next year is going to be awesome!!

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Oct 05 2009

All Things Considered.

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How do we know what we do on a regular basis is a definitive positive, or negative. Now, I don’t believe things aren’t as perpetual as they may seem, the your days may differential but, it’s something to always work on… Like constant homework, your [despite myself] own IEP! Constantly second guessing myself or others and who you accommodate you, or you to others.

is there a third choice? After positive and negative: “Neutral” Or a fourth “all of the above”. A person puts them selves somewhere, a stage, ladder, a map, a high–chair, or something that would prove to them their day went well or not. What if it’s none of the above? I guess that would be a bit of a nihilistic way of thinking but who’s to say that is you, without your initial approval! Besides if I was nihilistic, I would believe in nihilism… that isn’t fairly true either.

See, I believe that “life in general” is very easy, it may take some time to figure yourself out, and to put your self on the first step on the ladder, but it’s the people around you that definitively help how many steps you have and make life complicated. Now the perspective is what after all things considered?? “how do you want too live your day” what gets you going; could be something “Simple & Negative”, or something “Complicated & Positive” my answers is this:

“I am very typical, but I refuse to be normal.” Funny huh! 

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