Mirror Mysteries

Living With Mosaic Downs Syndrome [ M.D.S. ] & Abortion.

Listening to: Type o Negitive “September Sun”  Mood: “Neutral”

This is such a tender subject for all! Either side of either pro-choice or pro-life! It really is. And honestly my biggest standing on the subject is merely this: What ever you do, you have a choice either good or bad it’s a choice. Abortion should be talked about of course and should never be ignored. There’s a lot of layers to it. And also a lot of arguments as well. You can go either way, again it’s a choice. You have the ability to see your choices and make a responsible action in whatever your position may be in your personal scenario.

And being very frank about it, how others see your choice is thier choice! and no matter if there’s a pro or a con. This subject is what gets a lot of people on edge and into arguements.

The biggest reason, why I talk about it is well I nearly lost my life. And it was no ones fault but my own at the time, and I learned from it. I’m alive I’m very neutral in terms of choices and the ending results; I’m pro life, and pro death… I believe you can’t have one without the other. And absolutely know one should make up your mind but you. This is your choice to have an abortion, and with this I can’t really be pro choice or pro life because I really don’t believe fighting, or arguing over the past is good for ANYONE!!

You can take what you will into tomorrow, but learn from it! People went to war, people went over seas, and people fought over other subjects just like this and you know what people died! And the biggest middle line in-between me and you is general responsibilities we have as human beings. And when you strip all the titles, stereo-types, and typical idiosyncrasies of everyone…. you have a simple responsibility and what makes it positive or negitive is for you to choose and people will definatley debate and I will not contribute to a subject that  usually is reprehensible to talk about. I’m not on anyone side but my own. So there’s pro-choice, pro-life, what about pro-responsibility?

Anyone can debate this yet it doesn’t make the choice right or wrong either.  Then again what do I know, I was listed with something scientifically a disease and typically I go for what is normal, but right now… what is more abnormal with a disease… The life or death of it? You tell me. And then you let me know what you want to be responsible for, the life or death of it?

Living With Mosaic Downs Syndrome [ M.D.S. ] & Simply Writting.

Music: Pandora Radio “ Dark Tranquility” Mood: “ I love my metal ” 

I’m very star-struck with Pandora.com, shana introduced it to me a few days ago, and I’m wondering why I didn’t find it before she did… !! …Oh-well. I’m in a good mood today, I want to write - in a certain way… little hard! I wont share which way that is, merely becuase I just wont, and I guess I had to share that; for what reason? Not sure. Inbetween working, cleaning up a bit, feeding, changing, laughing, and playing with my son, I’m feedng my ears with what I would consider great guitar music,  inbetween it all I’m filing my day with ramblings of I think incoherent, yet productive random entries.

Plus I’m waiting on a phone call. And I’m seriously considering either taking ronin outside, watching him play smoking a cigarette, or us watching a movie on netflicks waiting to see when he wants to go outside… again, why I share this? Not sure. Say it with me —–       W E I R D     

Living With Mosaic Downs Syndrome [ M.D.S. ] & Simply Writting.

Music: Pandora Radio “Beyond the North Waves“ Immortal ” Mood: “what ever mood a typical monday gives you” 

I’ve said over, and over how happy I am, and proud of myself and the people around me. And after the conference I’ve had more people talk to me, and new project to do, my success is know where I’d ever thought. Considering I am now on the B.O.D.  Board Of Directors, and the New NewsLetter Editor, for Mosaic World. 

And I still listen to my metal,  I still love to write, I’m writting even more now! Which makes me entirely happy! I sit down with my Coffee, and coffee cake my son is sleeping, writing another entry and just simply happy that I am still me. I on a personal level thought for a long time living with my MDS rather than against it would be very hard.   And honestly I dare not fully go into it right now for the very real fact that I wont stop writing with a bit of a dreary, and somewhat gloomy feel to it. And I just dont want to fight with myself anymore in that manner!! I like being  happy, and I’m simply still ME. I said it before, but I believe it…  “I had to fully get lost to find myself back home” And the only person that could help me was really… myself, and the people who really stood by me, and loved me through, the years, and believed in my abilites without titles/judgements/ and listened to me.  So, I can listen, and believe in others more and better.

… now, I’m going to have me a cigarette.