Mirror Mysteries

Living With Mosaic Downs Syndrome [ M.D.S. ] & Life.

Music: September Sun “Type- O -Negative ” Mood: “Content”

I think 4 to 5 years ago In Salem, Oregon I would’ve gone stir-crazy,  felt like I had to do something [which I am] spent money either I should or should not spend. I said to myself Carl’s Jr for Lunch today. Now any other time in my early days or others that might conceive this to be weird odd, or what not but you know I’m enjoying the fact that I have a coffee maker that works with little creamer other than none, I love the fact that I can savor a simple can of spaghetti Garlic, and Mushroom sauce and eat it like soup.

It’s not that I need very little to get me by, or that i’m perhaps could live with or without things…. It’s the real fact that I’m living.  And I know just how special, I am and the people all around me.The biggest reason I’ve not written is I refuse to mix my family, and the people I work with on a regular bass together. Because I really dont want anything to become perpetual. Yet the smallest thing is what is getting me to write, like what I can live without in terms of food. A very weird subject to write about yes. I guess, I’m just so proud of myself, my family by choice: my love, my son and his brother and my biological family Father, grandparents, brother, mother, and sister.

And uit was the smallest things today I noticed that got  me to this emotion. Well, one small grain of sand is a start  and can be a difference to a awesome view over a beach, and ocean view or a dried out lake in a dead-wooded forest.. [yes, I like metaphors]

Living With Mosaic Downs Syndrome [ M.D.S. ] & Life.

Music: Halo “Beyounce’” Mood: “I’m organizing my mood, by this blog”

It can be so very hard for me not to overreact at times, not making to much sense getting cryptic,  over emotional, but still very angered then enter the first sign of  either opposition to my mood, or challenging me by  someone saying/doing/looking at me wrong without me getting handed the title, and sometimes face of the “Dramatic Casey” cycle stay away blunder in all the emotions inside of me in all it’s glory.

So, I just acknowledge that side of me, then end it and continue on with my choices happily, and with pride. with irrevocable love to Shana Lynn.

And the smart, and best thing I can do right now for myself and that person is know I’ve done what I know is right for the family I want and in my life with actions make the effort to acknowledge all, act my age, put my  love priorities equally with hers and hope people will join us when they are ready. The biggest problem with things as a youth was being lonely and still being around people.  There go you; I love everyone, and invite everyone in with me. Thank you all.